walk worthy.

Guys, as I continue steadfast in the Lord and walking beside Him, I am humbled, amazed, and blessed at all He has done for me. You're probably sick of hearing this I know, but as I continue to bask in His presence He shows me something new to learn from every day. It's such an awesome thing to experience.

There's a lot going on right now in regards to my future and what the Lord is calling me to do, and as I continuously pray about it and become worried with the thought of what will be, where He'll take me, and what I'll have to go through to get there... one thing remained. As I spent the past few days pondering my future and praying about where God wanted me to go next, I couldn't help but to feel anxiety, stress and pressure because it's never a fun thing to NOT know where you're made to go, or where the Lord is wanting you to go. Walking home from class it dawned on me... my life is made for a purpose. God calls His children to walk WORTHY of the calling with which He has called us... we're not on this Earth for a normal life, guys. We're here to serve, love, and show people Christ in every aspect and area of our lives. That is our purpose.

While contemplating what to do next, my heart cried out to the Lord. Chatting with Him made me realize..my life is made for walking with purpose. That purpose is Christ. I want every part of me to be walking worthy of the calling with which He's called me. Regardless of where that takes me, what people say behind my back, and how I'm treated... I'm here for one purpose and one purpose only... Christ. With that said, I am to walk worthy of that calling which He's called me to. My life was created for Him. In every area of my life, the uncertainties, the broken pieces, the confused times, the path that I'm walking, in the love I have for Him... it's all for a purpose and I want it ALL for Christ. It's not about me.... this relationship with the Lord has showed me that all decisions great and small need to be consulted along with Him. I can't walk two feet on my own without Him guiding me. He has all the pieces of my life already figured out so why do I worry? The Lord knows the way in which I should walk... and walking hand in hand with Him has been the most beautiful, and scary experience of my life... but I think that scared feeling comes from surrendering everything I have unto Him. It is scary! But we have HOPE that the Lord will hold us even when we fall... He will uphold us with His hand, we can be sure of that.

He has a FUTURE and a HOPE for His people (Jeremiah 29:11). It's such a blessing to be walking in the light of the King. It isn't always easy and sometimes it means that what is right might not always be popular but so what? What can man do to us? God is on our side... He is all we need to be putting our trust in.

Walk WORTHY of the calling with which you guys were called (Ephesians 4:1). As Christians, we are not on this earth to fulfill the norms and experiences of this world. We're here for the sole purpose of Christ. To bring people to Christ, to walk hand in hand with Him every step of the way, no matter where we are, and to love Him and others with the same love He loved us with.

That is our purpose. My prayer is that you are encouraged in Him... and praying about what the Lord wants you to be doing as you're walking closely with Him.

Sometimes, it's the best and most secure place to be.. when not knowing what to do, where to walk, or what the future holds because Christ has it all in the palms of His hands.

Trust in Him.

"Walk worthy of the calling with which you were called...." Ephesians 4:1

healer.

One thing that has come into my mind lately has been the simple fact that God is the ultimate healer. I have listened to "Healer" by Kari Jobe over and over again, and every time I do I can't help but to be amazed and in awe of how God's healing power has restored my life.

God heals in all and every circumstance. In the worst circumstances, and even in the minute circumstances. His healing power is inevitable, it is irreversible, all powerful and the most miracle ever known.

As I have dealt with certain situations in my life, although I have never had a healing physically... I have had a beautiful healing from the Lord. He has healed my heart from grief, heartbreak, loss, devastation, and from depression. Not only has God taken the intricate details of my heart and healed them... but He has also healed my soul from hell. Sometimes I sit in amazement that He has taken a sinful, wretched, lost soul that I was and brought me into the beautiful glorious love that He freely offered. Looking back I am sometimes speechless at the fact that He has healed me in the most desperate of circumstances. In those times I thought to myself, 'I'll never be the same... I'll never be healed from this...' but trusting and surrendering all I had to the Lord truly restored my life. He is so powerful!

In the song "Healer" there's a verse that states: "Nothing is impossible for You...You hold my world in Your hands."

Nothing.... absolute NOTHING is impossible for Christ. His hand is outstretched and willing to save us. It is amazing.

The Lord has guided and directed my life according to HIS will, not my own. I am blessed and amazed at His provision and most of all, His healing power in my life. He died on the cross for me... He knew even before I became a sinner, that I was going to be a sinner, and He knew all the rejection, hatred, despise and uncertainty I would feel for Him, yet He STILL died for my sins and chose to love me. How can you not love Him back? How? He is the joy of my life. He has CHANGED my life. I am blessed, amazed, in awe, often times speechless at the healing power of God... without His hand, I would be no one.

He is the ultimate healer. Don't ever think for one minute that your circumstance can't ever become clean again. Don't let anyone make you believe that you're a lost cause, or that your loved one will never be fully healed... God can do all things.

I encourage you to go and listen to "Healer" by Kari Jobe. It has been the best worship song in this season of my life.... I am overwhelmingly blessed by His healing power.

random thoughts.

As I look upon all the Lord has done in my life I am overwhelmed with blessings and adoration for Him. He has brought me out of SO MUCH and through so much... I don't understand how I could have done it without Him... and I am so thankful.

As I look at this generation and the bitterness and rejection of the Lord... it saddens my heart. Never before, has my heart been so burdened for this generation, and for young girls. This generation needs Christ and those who already follow Him need to be start a revolution for Him.

Love is something we need to be pursuing in Christ, and towards others. Loving others when it may seem difficult, and loving people LIKE Christ loved us. As I watched the movie "Fireproof" with my friends a few weeks back... the main character said something that really stuck with me and put into perspective what Christ deals with on a continual basis. He said...

"How can I continue loving someone, when all they do is reject me? Time after time after time again?"

Perfect example of what Christ goes through isn't it? People continually reject Him... time after time after time... yet He continues to love EVERYONE equally.. and desires them with all His heart.

Pursue Christ and His love. Love others even when it may seem difficult, and love others LIKE Christ loved you.

This is my prayer.

most beautiful love.

Ahhh love. The one thing that every girl dreams about since they day they are 5. It seems as though the world gives false impressions of what 'true love' is. It wasn't until the past year or two when I found out the TRUE meaning of love and God clearly made it known to me. Tenth Avenue North is a band that I love so much.... they wrote a song entitled "Beloved". It's all about God and loving His church just like the bride. It's the most beautiful piece I've ever heard, and it brings me back to the Song of Solomon in the Bible. Sometimes confusing, yet riveting, this is the greatest book ever written with pure, true, and faithful definitions of romance and love. It's absolutely remarkable.

I've known this already but I love saying it again.... love is the cross. Without the cross, and Jesus's death on the cross... we would be NOTHING, and we would not have love at all. It was His true, selfless, undying love for us that we are saved and should desire to love Him in return.

As I thought about life and the things God has called me to, other questions and curiosities wander through my mind... yet God continues to bring me back to His simple truth. "Wait on me, and allow Me to give you the most beautiful, hand written love story of all time. Until then, love Me, trust Me, walk with Me and obey Me and I will give you the desires of your heart." Such beautiful words from the greatest love I know :)

I have fallen short. And I have been in relationships in the past. I'm not saying dating/relationships are bad, because they're not! They're GOOD. They give us a sense of what we need and desire in a future spouse. They also teach us what a GOOD relationship looks like, one that is God centered and led by the Lord, and what a BAD or unhealthy relationship looks like (and I've been in a few of those!!! Yikes!) Dating may be right or wrong for some people. It's different for everyone because God has already written out your love story.... now He needs to walk you through it to get to your spouse! Throughout all the heartaches, losses, and frustrations of relationships I never fully applied myself to the greatest relationship ever known. One between me and the Lord. It's so simple eh? Not for everyone. Some people don't desires to surrender themselves fully to the Lord, to give them their relationships and decisions about their future spouse. It's difficult because often times we get so lonely and want a companion and that "one true love" but we often miss what love is all about. If we have no idea what love is all about, then how can we ever find it? God gave the greatest, most beautiful, lovable, unique gift of all time... His son. Through His son God sent forgiveness, mercy and most of all LOVE. Jesus's death on the cross was the epitome of true love.

Oh, it became SO CLEAR to me this past September at my Encounter Fall Retreat. I always celebrated Good Friday and the crucifixion but I don't really think it sunk in as deeply as it did for me that weekend. God's voice rang SO LOUD, I could barely hear my heart beat.... it was incredible :) His love was THE ONLY love I needed... and the cross was the definition of that TRUE LOVE :) Such a blessing.

As I accepted that truth and made it the building block to ALL I do, God has given me tremendous peace and comfort in HIS love, knowing that our relationship is the most beautiful love story ever written :) He's given me contentment, fulfillment, and joy, and I have confidence in knowing that He also holds the love story written for me and my husband.... He just has yet to reveal it to me :)

What an exciting time in the lives of those who are single. And don't worry you who are married, engaged, or in relationships... I'm not bashing you!! How EXCITING that God has brought that one person into your life! But for all the single people... this is the most exciting time of your lives. God has picked out someone for you already... He has him/her in His hands... just fixing the intricate details of your life until it's HIS perfect timing to bring them to you! But until then.... fall in love with Jesus and give Him every since piece of your love life. He will so fulfill you with all you need and desire!

Tonight I was reading in Song of Solomon and God gave me these scriptures:

"Like an apple tree among the trees of the woods, so is my beloved among the sons. I sat down in his shade with great delight, and his fruit was sweet to my taste. He brought me to the banqueting house, and his banner over me was love. Sustain me with cakes of raisins, refresh me with apples, for I am lovesick. His left hand is under my head, and his right hand embraces me. I charge you, O daughters of Jerusalem, do not stir up nor awaken love until it pleases."

Lovesick. Who would have thought this could be a GOOD thing? :) But it so is!!! Bask in His presence and fall more in love with Him.

There's some things that always remind me of how wonderful, miraculous, loving, and perfect my God is. With His love, nothing can compare. With the love of the Lord....

He never leaves you.
He never breaks your heart.
He never lies to you.
He fulfills your desires with blessings.
He comforts you when no one else will listen.
He drops everything, and anything to listen to you..the Lord never sleeps.
He promises to come again and redeem you (like the bride and her bridegroom)
He keeps every secret.
He holds your hand every step of the way.
He guides you and gives you direction.
He's way smarter than me... His words and wisdom are far beyond my own discernment.
He provides when all else has failed.
He is sufficient.
He is enough.
He is LOVE.

above and beyond.

As the first week of my second semester classes wrapped up, I couldn't help to think all week of how God has clearly provided in my life all this way. His provision is crystal clear and I am so blessed by Him. He promises to give all we need and ask for if we obey Him and listen to what His word says. As a lot of hardships happened last semester, I knew that the entire time situations crumbled down before me... God had it all under control. He continually reminded me of Isaiah 41:10 and His blanket of peace was stretched over me. As I went to class this week to begin my second semester of my Junior year, I suddenly realized WHY God had allowed all those things to happen to me first semester. It is so magical! The Lord clearly was with me the entire time. Failing math was no longer a horrible tragedy in my life, but it was a learning and growing experience. This semester, re-taking that class, God has placed me with such a wonderful teacher, he is such a blessing! I understand the concepts and feel at ease with what God did. As my dear friend said to me... "See? Everything happens for a reason." and that is SO TRUE. Everything happens for GOD'S purpose. He has a purpose laid out for me... one that is foggy right now, but I believe is becoming clearer :) It is such a blessing to see the work He's doin in my life.

As I walked through the rest of the week I was exceedingly abundantly blessed by my classes. Not only are they quite easy... but I love them! I read the textbooks and enjoy it... now, what college student could tell you THAT?! :) God has just overwhelmed me with his grace, peace, mercy and most of all love. What a blessing it is!!! As I came across the right words to say, thoughts to think, and prayers of thanksgiving unto my Lord... nothing could suffice. Jesus brought me back to the well known passage of Ephesians that states,

"Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory. . ." Ephesians 3:20-21.

What powerful words!! I could go over this statement over and over again... but it always remains the same. We seem to have a map of what our lives look like, it's all planned out with times and scenarios... and we try our hardest to match what OUR design looks like. The problem? We're trying to control, and we're not letting God do the work. When we surrender every aspect of our lives to the Lord, He may be doing something different, but it's always exceedingly abundantly what you can even imagine!!!

This is how I've felt this entire week. Exceedingly blessed by His provision, love, guidance, peace, mercy, and forgiveness for me :) Isaiah 55:8 states that, His ways are not your ways, nor are your thoughts His thoughts, for as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are His ways higher than your ways, and His thoughts than your thoughts.... what a mouthful! But something SO TRUE that we need to keep in mind as believers. To walk in light, and to trust in Him with all our hearts.

Ahh...exceedingly abundantly.. such precious words :) As I ponder all that the Lord is doing in my life, I can begin to see WHY He's allowed things and is allowing things to occur in my life. It's such a blessing!!! He's taken such a wretched, sinful, fallen woman, and brought her to a place of pure love, admiration and joy over Him. Something so sweet :)

Be encouraged and joyful in the Lord... there is NOTHING else like it. Trust in Him, especially when you think that what you desire could never even happen. The Lord knows the desires of your heart...walk in Him and He will fulfill those!

He surely does give exceedingly abundantly all that we ask for or think... :)

the unexpected.

Day after day the Lord continues to bless me with His love and overflow of His goodness :) Words can't simply describe. As a new semester approaches and new beginnings occur, I am excited and amazed to see what the Lord is doing and continues to do in my life. As doors open and some others close I am reassured that although some things I cannot understand, He is doing a work. I spoke with a dear friend today and was reminded that sometimes we have our schedules and lives all planned out according to what we want to do and what we think God is calling us to. Lots of times we're correct... and what we've prayed over and succeeded in, God has provided and led us all the way. But there's also certain times when we have it all figured out. We want to be teachers, accountants, business men, and we KNOW God has led us so far a way to bring us there... but then something happens... He turns our hearts, and He changes the desires and needs and makes them into an image of Him. I will say that has been the situation occurring in my life. God has totally taken me on a 180 path and although I can't quite see down the path clearly... I will continue to take steps in faith and see where God is leading. Sometimes He tells us to forsake all. It's in those times He has the GREATEST and most rewarding plan for our lives.

Chris Tomlin's book "The Way I Was Made" is incredible for people called to an unoardinary life. I quoted the book before, but I hope this other passage ministers to you as you pray and seek the Lord's will in your life... and that He would give you clear direction on where He wants you to follow Him to...

"Can you look back along the road of faith and see how God has graciously led you along? I can. When I made the choice not to go to grad school, but to trust that God was leading me to travel and play music, it was a risk. There were no guarantees. The next ten years were not mapped out on my apartment wall. But I'm so glad I took the step of faith. I've felt the wind of God blowing many times through that choice, sometimes at almost gale force. I've seen lives change, beginning with mine. What about you? Think about how different your life could be in one year or five or twenty if you listen carefully for the wind of God in your life and respond. If when the Spirit whispers, "See that road? Take it," you say yes. You could be part of starting something really big. Not that you'd know it when you walked out the door. God rarely works that way. He sure didn't with Abraham. You remember Abraham. One day, the wind of the spirit gusted into his life. God said:

"Leave your country, your relatives, and your father's house, and go to the land that I will show you. I will cause you to become the father of a great nation. I will bless you and make you famous, and I will make you a blessing to others. I will bless those who bless you and curse those who curse you. All the families of the earth will be blessed through you (Genesis 12:1-3)"

We don't know exactly what Abraham did next. Did he run God's message past his accountant? Did he think about it for days or weeks? Did he finish getting his degree? Don't know. But here's what we do know: "So Abraham departed," the Bible says, "as the Lord had instructed him." When God says, "Leave," are you ready to hit the road? He's probably not going to ask you to walk out of your dorm room or apartment today. More often He'll ask you to leave behind comfortable assumptions, competing commitments, mixed-up-priorities, a wrong relationship, a "must have" list of conditions. But when we say yes to God's invitations, big things happen--or atleast become possible for the first time."

its ok to be unsuual.

I want to share with you something out of the book I've been reading written by Chris Tomlin. For those of you who don't know, Chris is a well renown worship leader and follower of Christ. His book, "The Way I Was Made" has been such an inspiration and encouragement in this time of my life. I feel as though God has called me OUT of the 'usual' school degree into something more useful for His glory.... but that we'll get into later :) As I pondered, prayed, and was overwhelmed with what the Lord was calling me to do.... I also came with questions, worries, thoughts, and maybe even a little discouragement. Chris Tomlin had an entire chapter on this! With these words I want to encourage you... don't try to compare your life or worth to anyone else's... God made you for who YOU ARE... not in any way shape or form like the person next to you. :)

"I couldn't point to another person I knew who was doing exactly what I wanted to do. And I didn't really have a name--a job title--for it. I didn't want to be a "music minister"--that description just didn't fit me or my personality. In a situation like that, you can only move forward by faith. And you know, living by faith might sound fun and glamorous. But it isn't. It costs. Still, I encourage you to be open to your passion and to pursue it as you're able, even if you don't know exactly where it might lead. There is no ranking of passions or gifts in God's family. So whatever it is you want to do with your life, you're not second rate, and you're not a mistake. And "normal", whatever that is, isn't something God seems to delight in anyway. If you're wondering why you seem so different from those around you, read 1 Corinthians 12 again. Here is just a part of what Paul had to say: "There are different kinds of gifts, but the same Spirit. There are different kinds of service, but the same Lord. There are different kinds of working, but the same God works all of them in all men." When friends from school were turning into accountants, teachers, and investment brokers, I held on to truths like that."

God is leading... trust in Him :)